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Jan. 7th, 2005 @ 04:50 pm (no subject)
what are my pro's and con's?
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Jan. 4th, 2005 @ 02:34 pm (no subject)



i have finally set up my new livejournal.... my new name is






this will now be the livejournal i use, and some new things will be going on with it also... change is good, so relax

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Jan. 2nd, 2005 @ 01:49 am (no subject)

 I have kissed someone

on the cheek.
on the lips.
on their hands or fingers.

in my room.
in their room.
of the same sex.
of the opposite sex.
younger than me.
older than me.
with jet black hair.
with curly hair.
with blonde hair & blue eyes.
with flaming red hair.
with straight hair.
smaller/shorter than me.
bigger/taller than me.
with a lip ring. who was drunk.
who was high.
who I had just met.
who was homosexual.
who I didn't really want to kiss.
on a holiday.
who was going out with someone.
who was my good friend's brother or sister.
who had been/is in jail.
in a graveyard.
at a show/concert.
at the beach.
in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water.
with dyed hair.
with a shaved head.
who was/is my good friend.
who was/is in a band.
who has tattoos.
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain.

in another continent besides where I was born.
with an accent.
with an std.
on a boat.
in a car/taxi/bus.
on a plane.
at the circus/carnival.
with a missing body part.
in the movies.
eskimo style.

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Jan. 2nd, 2005 @ 01:38 am (no subject)

I miss somebody right now
I watch more tv than I used to
I love oldies
I love sleeping
I own lots of books
I wear glasses or contact lenses

I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana
I have been in a threesome
I have been the psycho-ex in a past ...relationship
I believe honesty is usually the best policy
I have acne free skin{in some places}
I like and respect Al Sharpton.
I curse frequently
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
I have a hobby

I've been told I have a nice butt
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
I'm smart
I've broken someone else's bone

I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
I love rain

I'm paranoid at all most times
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar free.
I need money right now
I love sushi
I talk really, really fast
I have fresh breath in the morning
I have semi-long... hair
I have lost money in... Las Vegas
I have at least one brother and/or one sister.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I shave my legs.
I have a twin
I couldn't survive without caller I.D.
I like the way that I look
I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months
I know how to do cornrows
I am usually pessimistic
I have mood swings
I think prostitution should be legalized
I think Britney Spears is pretty
I have cheated on a significant other
I have a hidden talent
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
I am currently single
I have kissed someone of the same sex
I enjoy talking on the phone
I practically live in sweat pants or PJ pants
I love to shop
I would rather shop than eat
I would classify myself as ghetto
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
I'm obsessed with my LJ
I don't hate anyone
I'm a pretty good dancer
i dont think kobe raped that ugly bitch
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
I have a cell phone
I watch MTV on a daily basis

I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
I have never been in a real relationship before
I've rejected someone before
I've graduated college
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
I want to have children in the future
I have changed a diaper before
I have had the cops called on me before
I bite my nails sometimes
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything deadly
I have a lot to learn
I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
I am very shy around the opposite sex
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
I have at least 5 away messages saved
I have tried alcohol before

I own the "South Park" movie
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Live journal
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
I enjoy country music
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
I watch soap operas whenever I can, I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist
I have used my sexuality to advance my career
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story"
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
I have dated a close friend's ex
I'm happy as of this moment

I have gone scuba diving
I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't
I play a musical instrument

I strongly dislike math
I'm procrastinating something right now

I own and use a library card
I fall in 'lust' more than in 'love'

I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
I HATE THE OC,I think Beyblades is the coolest show in coolsville
There are more things I could be better at, if only I tried harder
Sometimes I don't like food

I worry sometimes that I'm not being the best friend I could be to the people I care about
I desperately want people to respect me, but it rarely happens

I have never been able to say anything positive about myself and truly believe it
I think Scottish accents are very attractive
I'm very neurotic and suffer from acute paranoia
I speak another language besides English
I joke about eating, shaking, and kicking babies
I'm most likely to spend money on music
I've had sex
I've kissed a relative (made out)

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Jan. 2nd, 2005 @ 01:16 am (no subject)
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: MMHMM----- Relient K
Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
--Ralph Waldo Emerson

that is how i started this new year... which is quite good i do believe...

for what do we live for i ask? do we live for money, love, liberty? what do we live for? could it be we live for the pride in knowing that we shall too be remembered? haha, another question. why do i sit here and wonder all of these conundrums, when i have more important things to do. not sleep, but to live.

madeline and i are still dating so far... i know, it is quite amazing. i usually cant keep a girlfriend after christmas... oh well. i am trying a new approach to this relationship. it is not going to dwell in my mind all the time. she is important, and for some strange, unknown reason, she is important... meaning that i care for her, and it surprises me how my attitude towards it is strange. confusion is all around me once again...

He lives the poetry that he cannot write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realise.
--Oscar Wilde

oh, to live another day! so refreshing

the pencil has dropped
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Jan. 1st, 2005 @ 01:29 am (no subject)
Current Mood: contentcontent

i am coming up with another username... wildwookie has been outlived, and it is a new year...

my new name....



heres the question: if you fall through the rabbit hole, do you come out a changed individual?

heres the answer: of course

well, madeline and i are still going out. i have not talked to her since christmas, so i am not to sure of that... she might of changed her mind or something... oh well... i still believe we are going out... which is good... quite good

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Dec. 31st, 2004 @ 07:19 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: okayokay
my indifference will be the end of me...
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Dec. 20th, 2004 @ 11:29 pm tis the season...
tis the season
but it seems for an unknown reason
everyone is in good cheer
but i still have that underlying fear

everyone is smiling
it is quite contagious it seems
no more sighing
when they sleep, wonderful dreams

snow is falling
no snowflake is the same
temperature drops
winter chill came

tis the season
oh what a wonderful time
we should know the reason
not understanding is considered a crime

wow, that has to be the worst thing i have ever written... oh well... i am quite tired. i went shopping with madeline tonite... and alan, and monica, ladd, and madeline's big brother aaron... wow, i am now shopping with the family... oh well...

i then threw up at there house...i have been getting sick like that lately. its not anything i eat... who knows... i thought i got rid of my sorrow and all that bad stuff a long time ago... i thought i dumped it away over the summer... now it seems i am feeling it again... it must be the season... who knows...

i guess you could say mine and madeline's relationship is going good. i am not good at figuring things like that out. it is quite surprising that we have been going out for more than a month, and we have not done anything yet. she we both realized that last week. it is kinda funny. we talked about it on the phone saturday... it was quite funny.

i hope she likes what i got her for christmas... oh well

i think it is ok that madeline and i have not done anything yet. mostly because we have not been able to hang out with each other besides at school and FFA things. oh well. this thursday i am going over there for a christmas party. that should be fun.

well, that is all for now... i think i am going to stop writing in livejournal for some time... it used to be so important for me to post and read my friends posting, but now it is just a waste of time... oh well... just one more severed link to my friends... add it to the list


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Dec. 19th, 2004 @ 01:52 pm nothing
[ ]been drunk.
[ ]smoked pot.
[x]kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[x]rode in a taxi.
[x]been dumped.
[ ]shoplifted.
[ ]been fired.
[x]had a job.
[ ]been in a fist fight.
[ ]snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ]been arrested.
[ ]stole something from your job.
[ ]celebrated new years in times square.
[ ]went on a blind date.
[ ]gone on an airplane by yourself.
[x]broken a bone.
[ ]had sex in a car.
[x]White lied to a friend.
[ ]had a crush on a teacher.
[ ]celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ]been to europe.
[x]made out in a movie.
[x]taken caffiene pills.
[ ]been to disney land.
[x]had a crush on someone you hardly knew.
[ ]been to california.
[x]been skinny dipping.
[x]regretted something.
[x]peed on someones lawn.
[ ]skipped school.
[x]thrown up from drinking.
[ ]lost your sibling.
[ ]been butt nekked bangin on the bathroom floor.
[ ]kissed a member of the same sex--
[ ]been in a car accident
[ ]partied for days and days straight.
[x]had a family member die.
[X]played 'clue'.
[X]had a sleepover party.
[x]went ice skating.
[ ]dropped x.
[x]been cheated on.
[x]had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ]had a threesome
[x]had a sweet sixteen.
[ ]had a quinceanera.
[X]had a car.

Do you...

[ ]have a bf.
[x]have a gf.
[ ]have a crush.
[ ]have a dog.
[x]have a cat.
[X]have your own room.
[ ]listen to SLAYER!
[ ]paint your nails.
[x]play a sport.
[x]play more than one sport.
[x]watch sports on tv.
[x]have a fav. group/singer/artist.
[x]have more than 1 best friend.
[x]get good grades.
[x]play an instrument.
[x]have slippers.
[x]wear boxers sometimes to bed
[ ]wear black eyeliner.always
[x]like the color blue.
[x]like the color yellow.
[ ]cyber.
[ ]claim.
[x]like to read.
[x]like to write.
[ ]have long hair.
[x]have short hair.
[x]have a cell phone.
[x]have a laptop.
[ ]have a pager.

Are you...
[ ]ugly.
[ ]pretty.
[x]bilingual. (does Spanglish count?)
[ ]black.
[ ]mexican/puerto rican.
[ ]asian.
[ ]short.
[ ]sick.
[ ]single.
[x]not looking.
[x]talking to someone
[ ]IMing someone.
[ ]scared to die.
[ ]annoyed.
[ ]on the phone.
[ ]in your room.
[ ]drinking something.
[ ]eating something.
[ ]in your pjs.
[x]listening to music.
[ ]homophobic.
[ ]racist.
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Dec. 6th, 2004 @ 05:38 pm (no subject)
I am here
sitting, just waiting
going nowhere
emotions debating

throw myself out
helping hand I want to be
in a helping drought
eyes are open, but nothing to see

so condescending
sitting here reminiscing
of before and after
warm thoughts of laughter

then thoughts of sorrow
come flooding in from out of the blue
no hope in tomorrow
no leaf hung down by the morning dew

swirled around with pain
lost, not knowing where to go
dry, like a desert devoid of rain
a las, something seems to glow

a light, a glimmer of hope
slices through the darkness like a knife
climb out of this hole on a rope
emerging, clear of this strife

haha, passing all classes, lowest grade is a C-... which will change soon. listening to new Toby Mac cd, and it rocks my socks off!!!

working tomorrow nite, which i am not to worried about it. all homework is done, and things seem to be looking up. i have some things to settle, but other than that, life is swell...

the pencil has dropped...
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